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Results are out! Sorta dissapointed with myself for getting that shit-stained grade in my report book. Gosh, it's okay though. I'll do better next time. I'll really work hard ass from now onwards. Promise. I hatehatehate seeing my parents looking down or maybe be dissapointed of my performance. I wanna make em proud. And, that day will come soon. Being the eldest among my siblings, I have to set an example for my other siblings to follow. So, revision will start as soon as June hols starts. I'll revise absolutely hard and be a nerd for whoever cares. So what if you're going to enjoy your holidays watching movies and go window-shopping everyday. I'm going to be your boss someday and you're going to wash my car. Lol, did I just say that? Hahaha I can't believe it.
So, tomorrow we have that stupid Health thingy. I really don't get the point of that. They could simply make PE twice a week for the rest of the year so that we have our sufficient exercise. What's the use of having just one particular day doing all this exercise? It's not as if you're gonna burn fats in that one day. So, might as well have PE twice a day. Pfft.
Haish, I don't really know what has gotten into me. I'm avoiding friends. Since the beginning of the year, I have this feeling that being a loner is much better. Like there's more peace. But I bet you ppl reading this doubt so. You might feel that friends are your world blablabla. Yes, it's true. But, I feel that being alone is more peaceful. Like when you are with yourself, you are yourself. Lol, did I make any sense? Haha. What I meant was, if you wanna hide something from your friends, you probably pretend that everything is as it is to your friends when the truth is that, it's disturbing you deep inside. For example, you're actually sad. But not to trouble your friends, you pretend that you're fine. Then, at home, before you sleep, you'll cry. Now, you have to settle two things. First, your initial feeling of being sad and second, the feeling of "lying" with your friends. Lol, do I still make no sense? Haha, heck my language. thanks.
Arghhhhhhhhhh! I want last year to not end. Last year was my dream year. The dream which I never want to wake up from. But, without a choice, I had to wake up and go through this hell year. I'm not enjoying it that much, that is for sure. But thanks to my dear class, 3e3, it makes it possible for me to survive the day.
Wow, this is a long post. Haha. I see those pretty girls walking down the street, beside me and I get jealous. I'll always think to myself. Why am I not her? But, I have to be grateful to what Allah has given me. My life, my family, my friends, happiness, sadness, a home for shelter, sufficient food and a safe country to live in. Ppl in poor country's worried about dying because of hunger or being eaten by some huge vultures while I am here, worrying about what to wear when I go out, how much to bring when I go out, what food to eat, sometimes even very choosy of the food consumed. I have to stop complaining, start being thankful to whatever Allah has given me and start realising how much help the ppl in poor countries need. Cause, what we have now, is not ours to take, but ours to share. Allah give us what we have for a reason. A reason to help those in need.
Well, I think Ihave written more than enough. I don't think anyone will read this post since blog is "out-fashioned". But, I always post a piece of my mind. Lol, K. Must go now. Bye.
I know that it has been a month since I last updated this dear blog of mine. My life these days has been revolving mostly around studies, homework and school. By inferencing from this three words, you can predict how my life has been this few weeks. SYF is around the corner and I'm nervous of the outcome of our greatest efforts. I believe that the outcome will bring us tears of joy instead of sadness. I believe that we can make it but that does not mean that there is no room for improvements. Nothing is perfect in this world except for the creations that Allah made.
So far, I think I've got myself trapped in this word called love. Not literally trap, but I think that I'm feeling what I felt 2 years ago. But what I feel now is a minor one compared to the previous one. But still, I know I would not drown myself with tears just because it would not turn out as what I hoped to be. I won't be that weak girl no more. She don't get herself fooled with reality now.
Drop that. I'm going to my cousin's crib tomorrow. Going to have some quality time with relatives. I'm not totally looking forward to it. I'm exhausted from the practices. My shoulder aches form carrying a heavy bag. I'm not enjoying school. You make me not enjoy it. I'm becoming furious with you. Go shit bricks. Bye.
I was awake by 5.30 am to get myself dolled-up for the ASEAN SYF Grand Opening's audition. Gave Inah a call to tell her that I'm all ready to meet up. We then headed to Sun Plaza's toilet to let Inah put on her lens. Since Diny's grandfather is doing us a favour by sending us there, we met her near Sun Plaza. We ate our breakfast in the car as there was limited time for us to eat in the Mac. We were pretty early. We went to register our names and had our numbers taped to our shirt.
To my surprise, the audition had nothing to do with malaydance. It was purely on ballet. We started it up with intensive stretching. We were told to do split and other stretches that you normally see a ballerina do. My legs were all stretched. That is for sure. The instructor then taught us some simple basic ballet routines. It was easy at the beginning and it challenged me soon after. The dance routines were extremely fast and it involved your legs to go as high as the sky and some jumping. It was fun but the feeling of not having to catch up the routines really makes me feel upset. Well, let what has been done, be done. No regrets for it. However, I strongly think that it was really unfair that we don't get to be in the next round just because we had to dance ballet. For goodness sake, we're malay dancers plus we have zero experience in ballet and you expect us to do ballet? Nice. -.-
Crapcrapcrapcrapcrap. I strongly feel that I am going to fail my English paper, hands down. As for SS, there's a 50% chance that I may have a moderate mark for it. E Math, I hope I will pass it with flying colours cause if I don't, I am a big dissapointment. So far, 3 papers down, 2 more to go. Tomorrow's chemistry and malay the day after.
Just now house meeting was like asdfghjkl! WALAO! So very the mendak. ): Then somemore wanna go home and revise my chem. Chem, tsk, I think, I think, I think I won't do well. :/ URGH ! It seems that almost every subject I'm going to fail badly. I. am. a. big. failure.
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Monday, May 23, 2011
Okay lol. The previous post I sounded so erm.. Immature and ermm.. dependant on guys. Hahaha. Stupid me.Results are out! Sorta dissapointed with myself for getting that shit-stained grade in my report book. Gosh, it's okay though. I'll do better next time. I'll really work hard ass from now onwards. Promise. I hatehatehate seeing my parents looking down or maybe be dissapointed of my performance. I wanna make em proud. And, that day will come soon. Being the eldest among my siblings, I have to set an example for my other siblings to follow. So, revision will start as soon as June hols starts. I'll revise absolutely hard and be a nerd for whoever cares. So what if you're going to enjoy your holidays watching movies and go window-shopping everyday. I'm going to be your boss someday and you're going to wash my car. Lol, did I just say that? Hahaha I can't believe it.
So, tomorrow we have that stupid Health thingy. I really don't get the point of that. They could simply make PE twice a week for the rest of the year so that we have our sufficient exercise. What's the use of having just one particular day doing all this exercise? It's not as if you're gonna burn fats in that one day. So, might as well have PE twice a day. Pfft.
Haish, I don't really know what has gotten into me. I'm avoiding friends. Since the beginning of the year, I have this feeling that being a loner is much better. Like there's more peace. But I bet you ppl reading this doubt so. You might feel that friends are your world blablabla. Yes, it's true. But, I feel that being alone is more peaceful. Like when you are with yourself, you are yourself. Lol, did I make any sense? Haha. What I meant was, if you wanna hide something from your friends, you probably pretend that everything is as it is to your friends when the truth is that, it's disturbing you deep inside. For example, you're actually sad. But not to trouble your friends, you pretend that you're fine. Then, at home, before you sleep, you'll cry. Now, you have to settle two things. First, your initial feeling of being sad and second, the feeling of "lying" with your friends. Lol, do I still make no sense? Haha, heck my language. thanks.
Arghhhhhhhhhh! I want last year to not end. Last year was my dream year. The dream which I never want to wake up from. But, without a choice, I had to wake up and go through this hell year. I'm not enjoying it that much, that is for sure. But thanks to my dear class, 3e3, it makes it possible for me to survive the day.
Wow, this is a long post. Haha. I see those pretty girls walking down the street, beside me and I get jealous. I'll always think to myself. Why am I not her? But, I have to be grateful to what Allah has given me. My life, my family, my friends, happiness, sadness, a home for shelter, sufficient food and a safe country to live in. Ppl in poor country's worried about dying because of hunger or being eaten by some huge vultures while I am here, worrying about what to wear when I go out, how much to bring when I go out, what food to eat, sometimes even very choosy of the food consumed. I have to stop complaining, start being thankful to whatever Allah has given me and start realising how much help the ppl in poor countries need. Cause, what we have now, is not ours to take, but ours to share. Allah give us what we have for a reason. A reason to help those in need.
Well, I think Ihave written more than enough. I don't think anyone will read this post since blog is "out-fashioned". But, I always post a piece of my mind. Lol, K. Must go now. Bye.
Labels: Alhamdulillah.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Have you ever felt like the whole world is against you? Like you have no shoulders to lean on when you have to shed a tear or two, or a pair of listening ears for you to pour out your heart's burden. I'm feeling that these days. I have a hunch that most of my friends, seniors, juniors as well, dislike or probably detest me. I'm crying every night and wake up with eyes like fishballs. I remebered telling myself never to cry for any men. Guess what? I shed tears for this dude. How lame can that ever be? ): It's just, we were close and now, we barely speak to each other. Furthermore, he's changed. He literally tranformed into this bad boy which I truthfully dislike. He finally gathers enough courage to speak with girls now unlike last time. Tell me, what kind of friend likes their friend to change drastically and stop talking with you.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Syf is around the corner. I watched the dance of the previous Syf through youtube and my heart just pounded like mad. They are all so synchronised and their formations are just perfect. Whereas our dance, we need improvements. We have to better our technics and keep the mood up. I understand that we're tired and there's just no energy for us to make the dance lively. I don't smile at times. Shh, don't tell anyone. Haha. However, I can't wait for Monday because we get to see the real thing. What I meant was the stage. The venue which we are going to do our thing. I can't wait for Monday but I can wait for Tuesday. I'm so nervous that things are not going to be the way as it seems. Goshhhh. Oh Allah, pls make our dance go smoothly and may we get the best award we should achieve. Amin. Labels: Gold of Honours FTW.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
May Peace Be Upon You,I know that it has been a month since I last updated this dear blog of mine. My life these days has been revolving mostly around studies, homework and school. By inferencing from this three words, you can predict how my life has been this few weeks. SYF is around the corner and I'm nervous of the outcome of our greatest efforts. I believe that the outcome will bring us tears of joy instead of sadness. I believe that we can make it but that does not mean that there is no room for improvements. Nothing is perfect in this world except for the creations that Allah made.
So far, I think I've got myself trapped in this word called love. Not literally trap, but I think that I'm feeling what I felt 2 years ago. But what I feel now is a minor one compared to the previous one. But still, I know I would not drown myself with tears just because it would not turn out as what I hoped to be. I won't be that weak girl no more. She don't get herself fooled with reality now.
Drop that. I'm going to my cousin's crib tomorrow. Going to have some quality time with relatives. I'm not totally looking forward to it. I'm exhausted from the practices. My shoulder aches form carrying a heavy bag. I'm not enjoying school. You make me not enjoy it. I'm becoming furious with you. Go shit bricks. Bye.
Labels: aku malas nak upload gambar hari ini. Lain hari bile aku free and rajin, aku upload k?, Erm
Friday, March 4, 2011
I like you but you like her and I have a hunch that she likes you too. Every single day I try my best not to show that I liked you. But I think that that is one of my daily challenges now. I tried to imagine both of you guys together and it breaks my heart. Truly. The other night I dreamt of you both and the whole of that day I'm just like depressed. I mean, I'm not totally sad but my mood sure got affected. Please take not, I'm not crazily in love with you but I just feel that I will like it if you have the same feelings for me too. Kbai.Labels: If only you could be mine.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Hellu,I was awake by 5.30 am to get myself dolled-up for the ASEAN SYF Grand Opening's audition. Gave Inah a call to tell her that I'm all ready to meet up. We then headed to Sun Plaza's toilet to let Inah put on her lens. Since Diny's grandfather is doing us a favour by sending us there, we met her near Sun Plaza. We ate our breakfast in the car as there was limited time for us to eat in the Mac. We were pretty early. We went to register our names and had our numbers taped to our shirt.
To my surprise, the audition had nothing to do with malaydance. It was purely on ballet. We started it up with intensive stretching. We were told to do split and other stretches that you normally see a ballerina do. My legs were all stretched. That is for sure. The instructor then taught us some simple basic ballet routines. It was easy at the beginning and it challenged me soon after. The dance routines were extremely fast and it involved your legs to go as high as the sky and some jumping. It was fun but the feeling of not having to catch up the routines really makes me feel upset. Well, let what has been done, be done. No regrets for it. However, I strongly think that it was really unfair that we don't get to be in the next round just because we had to dance ballet. For goodness sake, we're malay dancers plus we have zero experience in ballet and you expect us to do ballet? Nice. -.-
Labels: All elastic.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
May Peace Be Upon You,Crapcrapcrapcrapcrap. I strongly feel that I am going to fail my English paper, hands down. As for SS, there's a 50% chance that I may have a moderate mark for it. E Math, I hope I will pass it with flying colours cause if I don't, I am a big dissapointment. So far, 3 papers down, 2 more to go. Tomorrow's chemistry and malay the day after.
Just now house meeting was like asdfghjkl! WALAO! So very the mendak. ): Then somemore wanna go home and revise my chem. Chem, tsk, I think, I think, I think I won't do well. :/ URGH ! It seems that almost every subject I'm going to fail badly. I. am. a. big. failure.
Labels: You left me with a wrong idea.